Answer By Gurudev !

I can't resist myself from writing this post! Today it's not first time when Dinu (Dinesh Ghodke) behaved like Guru! I recall my advance course with Dinesh (Maitri hall at Ashram). The advance course was going superb. Satsang was going on. But I was not happy. I told Guruji in my mind that "All this is good Guruji! but you are not here! If you were here you would have sung me!" Immediately I don't know from where Dinesh comes on stage (till then I was not even aware that he was there in the hall) and start singing! I mean I have never heard him singing in any advance course ever! It was like Guruji is telling me where are you looking me? I am here right in front of you! My tears started rolling down out of contentment! As Guruji says "मुझ मे और ज्ञानी में भेद नहीं है!" 

The last Happiness course I have taught was in complete sickness! I was not able to walk comfortably, take warm-ups! But I am sure that none of my students could identify my health condition! That's the grace! Though I was very grateful to get an opportunity to teach course, what was bothering me is I couldn't attend Satsang! Finally on the last day of course, I plan to go to ashram with my course participants! :-D And imagine what happens?? We have not even started warm-ups and Guruji comes in car, and says "Hiii" to all of us! :D 

I am still surprised from where and how Dinesh miraculously come to take a session for course participants! Thanks to Rajni and Nivedita for organising this! It was just few days back when Dinu came on the last day of my own first Art Of Living course! (Called YES!+ at that time) Everything appears exactly like a dream! Imagine what happens next! Even today he talks on the same topic i.e. "Love"!  ;-)

I was sitting quietly in the end of participants wondering if this is dream or reality or what I think as reality is actually a dream! ;-) Wondering, how much of transformation has happened to me in just two and half years when I did my first Art Of Living course! I was feeling so grateful for this path and Guruji! But still I was stuck with last 6 days of satsangs that I had to miss! I really wanted to get answer from the guru for my last poem! (Refer http://chaitanyaneha.blogspot.in/2014/05/answer-me-gurudev.html) 

At one point of time I just told Guruji in my mind that "All this is fine Guruji but you didn't answer my question!" And here Dinesh, I don't know from where started recalling what Guruji told in satsangs which I had to miss because of evening course. I got excited! Something inside me gave me intuition that this must be the answer to my poem by Guru that he gave during last few satsangs! Dinesh says, Guruji told in satsang that "When you get doubt if I love you or not or if I am your guru then this doubt itself is a prove that it is! Because what do we doubt on? Positive or negative? If somebody says "I love you" we doubt on their love. But if somebody says "I hate you" We immediately reply back and saying "I hate you too" we do not doubt the negative. So if you are getting doubt feel good because there is surely something good and positive on the other side. Feel happy about your doubt! 

Love,

Neha