GuruStory: My first encounter to beyond life

My first advance Meditation course with Dinesh Ghodke was mind blowing! I was very excited to attend the second one. At the same time my uncle (Father's Younger brother) was unwell. Uncle was at deathbed and was very deeply hurt with the behavior of his dear one's. He was also worried about future of his kids as they didn't had job at that time


And then he expired. I had the advance program to attend on same dates of his last ceremony which I have been longing for very dearly. I asked my father if I should also come on his Tervi (13th day of pooja) my father said I need not come as I am youngest daughter. He told me to go and attend advance program as I have no role to play in ceremony as I am kid.

In my advance course surprisingly bowing down process happens right on the day of my Uncle's Tervi and on the 2nd day of my advance course. As Gurudev talks about ancestors I felt my dear Uncle came at the venue (Vishalakshi Mandap) I was surprised and thought what is he doing here? He should be where the ceremony is happening! He was in huge pain and hurt! I could feel his pain.. I told him to "Not worry about kids as they come by their own karma and will live the life as per their own karma. You were just an instrument for them to come. You have done all that you were supposed to do for them. Now leave them at their own karma and move on." I blessed him! I blessed him like an expert though I didn't even know what is blessing at that time. After I blessed him I felt He got relieved from the pain and he happily moved on and left the venue (Vishalakshi Mandap).


Surprisingly I did not even feel little scared when everything happened. Rather I felt kind of wow.. thinking how can I talk so well and bless him when I no nothing about blessing? Another wonder was bowing down happens just for few seconds and I am not sure how can so many things can happen in a fraction of seconds.

My 2nd advance course was really worse! Meditation was happening but I never felt wow. I was feeling even more irritated, angry, frustrated etc very opposite to how I felt after my 1st advance course! Finally one day I asked Dinesh Ghodke (my advanced course teacher) directly about why 2nd advanced course was so bad? He asked me back "Why?" I said " I have no idea" He looked at me and said "do more advance course." I said " I will!"

As he suggested I did 10 days advance course after that which was mind blowing again! The mystery of why my 2nd advanced course was not effective continued until I watched Gurudev's commentary on "Katopnishad" where he talks about life after death. He mentioned sadhak/Meditator get punya / merits of meditation only if our ancestors are content. If not, first merits goes to them to satisfy them and then it comes to us! Oh my God.. So my 2nd advance course punya was going to my dear Uncle? And Gurudev tells a mantra in sanskrit which means the same what I told My Uncle during bowing down process! Gurudev told its nice to tell this in the language that departed sole understands. And thats exactly what I did!

With Love and Gratitude,
Neha

You either believe in personality or Karma!

Guruji said yesterday in satsang "You either believe in personality or Karma!"

When you see personality : You think this person is hopeless. That person is very nice! Why do person is behave like this! Why she is do dumb! He said that to me she did this to me etc! At this level our mind is stuck and there is misery!

When you see its all my karma: My experiences are defined by my own karma and has nothing to do with any personality or people. Noone else exists! If my karma is good even the worst person will behave good with me. If my karma is bad best person will also create problem. Then personalities disappear! And mind is elevated and free!

One Consiousness/Brahman/God/Guru: The brahman is all powerful. It can eliminate any kind of karma. At this level Its all his play... a beautiful, interesting play (Lila) !


A cute incident happened with me yesterday as I go to dining hall in ashram to take "Kheer" (A tasty indian sweet dish) There was a small cute chaos around the kheer counter because of unmanaged crowd. The guy who was serving was happily, skillfully serving to all. One lady was holding a tray with many empty glasses that she wanted to fill with kheer. As empty glasses was far away for me I took one from her plate assuming she will take one from the other side as it very close to her! But she got very furious with my action! She started yelling.  (Truly seva/help can be done only when one is content! She was in lack consciousness about a small thing like glasses how could she have shared it with me! Compassion happened to me for her. But I was happy that she was in ashram and will grow eventually) I smiled to her, put the empty glass back on her tray and said "Relax.. take 2 from my side from the bunch of empty glasses beside you" This made her even more furious :-P she said "Guruji is giving me and not you!" I just looked at her with so much love and said "and you think I am not part of him?" I don't know if it clicked to her but she didn't not get furious after this!

As I was coming back with kheer to the sitting area I thought "Good... one karma over for me!" (faith on karma) and then thought passed if its your (Guru/Nature/Brahman) wish.. why not! I mean it was a good play with good masala :D

2nd thing that I realised is though it was my karma that I had to experience this, but how to respond to it is my freewill! How much to learn and be grateful about it is my freewill! Gurudev says "Behind every event there is knowlege"  I was very grateful that I could respond so well in the situation! I was never so sorted! Credit clearly goes to meditation. Truly how we respond in the play called life depends on how much peaceful and stable we are from within and to achieve that meditation is the way!


Love,
Neha