Smoke of incense stick...

Knowledge doesn't need any works. In deep love words don't comes out. Love just flows throws eyes! Transmits in the space and penetrates deep inside the hearts and tears rolls down!

ये दुनिया बाती का धुंआ,

बस मैं और तू है यहाँ सच्चा।  

अजब गजब आकर रचाए है ये धुंआ,

पर बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

अजब गजब कष्ट है यहाँ,

ये सब आकर बाती का धुंआ।

तू रचे है खेल, मेरे मनबसिया ! 

और कौन है यहाँ बोल? बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

शब्द जंजाल रचाया रे सैया,

शब्द या हवा के पुल सब झूठा। 

मेरा मन डोले है हैरान, ओ रचैया! 

मैं क्रीड़ाभूमि तू नाचे खेले खेला। बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

ये लोग आसपास मचाए है शोर,

हवन का धुंआ नाचे है चारो और।

न अस्तित्व इनका न मेरा,

बस तू ही हर जगह खेल खेला। 

ना दॄश्य ना द्रष्टा सब है झूठा। बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

Love,

Neha

Happy Birth Day My Dear Dinesh Ghodke !!! :-P

Though I can write volumes yet there is no words that can express!!!

(Yeah, I know I don't have a new pic so being a good software engineer, reusing the old one. :-P  Hope Mangesh will surprise me with some good pic from his collection after reading this! ;-) )

Yeah I know I do behave weird when near. 

I wonder how at those moments, others opinions don't matter!

I don't like talking, the real talk happens is silence, 

I don't feel like behaving normal, the real joy is in madness

Deepness of your eyes bridges to some other world, 

It makes me to loose grip of this so call real world

The joy of dispassion is visible in you, 

Feels like whole world is yours and still nothing is around you

The universe is so vast and so is you in me, 

It is a tiny molecule and there is no difference in you and me

I mature in love by being in love with you, 

I am so grateful to experience your "I belong to you"

Your voice resonance some very familiar sound, 

I can't recollect but I heard it before many many times

I cry in Sahaj feeling grateful to have you, 

What a luck it is to realize I am around you

I used to wonder if you are my Saibaba, 

Until I saw HIM in all and all under HIS one umbrella

God is everywhere but in you it really shines through, 

HE sent you to me to say I LOVE YOU !!!

Mystery of Time

Note: This idea about time is my individual view and I think it may be right. :-)


Since childhood I used to wonder what really time is? A star that I see right now, was existed like the way I persevere now, atlest 4 light years ago. So every-time I see the sky, I am actually seeing the past! It is possible that the star I am seeing right now is in really no more in present moment. And I think that the star is the reality like this in present moment, which all of us know is not true! The point in sky where my eyes says there is star right now can actually be an empty space (the star may have died/explored)

Why to go so far in sky, even the things that we see close to us is also the past! Its just a matter of few light years or fraction of second! In reality, state of things that I see perceive through senses is all past. Now see, right now you are seeing your laptop/mobile. And you think that the device exists is there in the state that you are perceiving right now. But in reality light rays takes sometime to reflect/emit from the device and fall into your eyes. It is possible that by the time the light rays falls into your eyes the state of the device/object is changed. Though this time is negligible, but the time gap is there! The time gap increases as the distance of the object/device increases from you/observer. So what you see right now, can never be in present moment! And the world that you see right now is completely dependent of your time and space position relative to the objects you see. Similarly the world that I see is dependent on my time and space position relative to the objects I persevere. So in reality the world that I see is never same as the world you see! Meaning if at all both of us are true we definitely perceive the world differently.

Now lets come down from starts to the gadget to one's own body. As a computer engineer, I know that even to execute a simplest machine instruction, it takes some time. So does human body will do. It definitely will take sometime after the light rays falls on my eyes periphery to travel till retina and build the image. Now image formed on retina is upside down! The mind will again take sometime to decrypt the image and give me impression of how to world looks to me right now! (I still don't know what this me is now, will think over it later)  So in reality everything that the senses tells me now actually happened in the past! So I am actually seeing the dead world :-P

Love,
Neha

My Visit To Hospital

As I am visiting hospital more frequently now because of my hand injury. I can't stop myself from writing what I see there. The first thing I see as soon as I enter the OPD is big queue for registrations. I really wish one day for Art Of  Living course also have such big counters. And why not! we definitely do provide better service! And people without meditation really are patient of their own emotions and circumstances!

Every-time I visit hospital, I have to wait for long time for my turn to meet doctor. And what is better time-pass than observing people! I almost every-time notice similar category of people. There are few people who will have long face, worried as if the world is collapsed. Then there are few who will be praying really intimately to God! I like watching  them. Just by watching their devotion even I get connected to the one! :-) Then there will be some kids around. Kids show unique a characteristic! Either kid will be crying and the whole ward will know there is a child inside or they will be happy, playing around, in their own world, inspite of all the fractures and cuts and stitches! Then there are few who are happy, enjoying the life inspite of the pain and physical condition! 

I remember I was little worried about my palm as my figures had really minimal movement even after one and a half months of surgery. I was in the room where I was being treated and a guy who was happily singing enters into the room. He Smiled at the doctor and sat on patient's seat. Both of his palm were covered with a nice designer red cloth. He removed the cloth and showed to doctor. Three figures of his one hand and four fingers of his another hand were cut! I just looked at his face again he was actually happy! As I talked to him, he said Its 2 months now after the event! He lost his figures when he was working in a factory. As he was working, his palm came in between the machine. He still works in same factory and says this is what I know!

It really made me wonder, is happiness anything to do with people or situation? A simple factory worker knows how to remain happy yet there are many who remain unhappy and grumbling in the most favorable situations.

Love,
Neha

My small Wishlist ;-)

I wrote this on my 3rd Art Of Living anniversary. On my 3rd Art Of Living anniversary, Gurudev told in Satsang "Why to sing someone else's song? Each one of you are song. Sing your own song!" So here it goes

My Dear Guru,

If I ever work for someone, may it be only you my dear manager

If I eat something, let you and only you be the enjoyer

If I ever create something, let it be you my driving factor

If I ever long for someone, let it be only you my care taker

If I ever aspire to become something, let it be only you my destination

If I ever get impressed by anyone, let me know its you in all my dear

If I desperately search outside, remind me to go inwards oh my designer

If I get diverted from the path, skilfully bring me back oh my partner

If I ever miss a satsang, you better miss me in the audience

When I dress-up nicely, look at me with single pointed attention

If I cook food, you better sit chupchap and eat like a food lover

If I ever run behind anything, let it be only you oh my attraction

When I speak, let it spread fragrance of you oh my inner corner

When I crack joke, may you roll and roll on floor in laughter

If I write something ,let it make others uplift on my driving factor

When I do seva, let me become you and act as you oh my creator

If I get caught up in my intellect, may I see only you in each particle

If I look back in past, let me only recollect guru stories oh my writer

If adveta is true, let it be only and only you apart from me oh my dear

If life is a dream, let it be filled with you and only you oh my imagination!

Simply Yours :-)
Neha

Special Love Story !!!

I heard many love stories till now. Almost all of them have same set of ups and downs, excitement, feverishness, fear and romance! But some love story has very special quality. Specially the love for Guru/God/Self. These are few very rear conversations that I have heard between lovers. I was very lucky to witness the same during satsang in presence of gurudev.

A guy stands up in audience and tells Guruji "Guruji I just love the way you walk, talk, answer questions and all the fun and naughty things you do. I love you Guruji!" Guruji smiles - "Oooo.. You have no choice! (laughter) (after few sec of silence) You know all qualities you appreciate in me are inside you. Start appreciating them. It will grow!"

Another guy stood up in audience during same satsang and said  "Guruji I do not have any question. I just want say (after a bit silence with shivering voice) I love you!." Guruji tells him in gesture "I love you too". He continue saying with even more shaky voice "I can't believe I have told you this! My whole body is shivering" Guruji smiles at him.

Another guy stood up and says.. "I have no idea why I start crying when I see you" Guruji said "Tears are obvious! When one see his beloved, tears rolls down. Knots in the heart opens up. In scriptures they say 2 signs of sadguru. (1) Tears rolls down when one see the guru (2) All questions disappear in the presence of Guru"

All those who have met Guruji have experienced both of the signs.

I experienced all kind of love, love for parents, friends, sisters, relationship, love for sweets, love for laptop. None of them could turn tears of misery into tears of gratitude for long term. None of them could make me realize that "I am that". All love put me away from my center. If there is any love in which difference of me and you disappears, its love of the Guru! Lucky are those who cry in this love ! Thanks for choosing me :-)

Love,
Neha

Life and a Movie

Well.. do you like watching movies? I have been in love with movies. By the way did you observe a unbelievebly miraculous truth about movie? Guess what? .... The movie actually happens somewhere far away on screen (or not happening anywhere! It's just an imagination of director ;)) yet, we laugh, cry, get angry, get upset, feel in love as if the movie is real. Now think again.. do you see some similarity between movie and life?

Did you observe that something inside you which is actually watching events of life happening around is the same something which watches a movie as well. And the something inside you which gets entangled in characters and script of a movie is the same something which gets stuck with events and people of real life as well (if it can be called real).

During watching movie or thinking about movie afterwards did you notice that if at all you get too much carried away by the emotions of movie, there is something inside us which wakes us up and says "ahh! relax its just a movie!" Now if the same something inside you can be woken up to its full potential has ability to recognize and say "ahh! its just a life!" (a 5D movie)

5D? Whats is that? Well.. if I consider 2D movie as combination if visual effect and sound on 2D screen. 5D can be considered as combination of vision, sound, touch, taste and smell with 3D screen. :-) Now wait and imagine being inside a 5D movie! Imagine exactly how would it be? Now look around. Are you really sure you are not in a 5D movie?

Life gives one extra cool feature over a movie i.e one can choose to participate as an actor in 5D movie. Yeah! to make sure you heard it right I reiterate ... one can participate in it as an actor and not as a director ! ;-)

Realizing this brings sudden rest and peace. The events of life which was cause of disturbance before when realized as just a 5D movie becomes source of entertainment! Being dynamic when participating as actor and simultaneously resting inside knowing its just a 5D movie is the real skill.

Love,
Neha