GuruStory: My first encounter to beyond life

My first advance Meditation course with Dinesh Ghodke was mind blowing! I was very excited to attend the second one. At the same time my uncle (Father's Younger brother) was unwell. Uncle was at deathbed and was very deeply hurt with the behavior of his dear one's. He was also worried about future of his kids as they didn't had job at that time


And then he expired. I had the advance program to attend on same dates of his last ceremony which I have been longing for very dearly. I asked my father if I should also come on his Tervi (13th day of pooja) my father said I need not come as I am youngest daughter. He told me to go and attend advance program as I have no role to play in ceremony as I am kid.

In my advance course surprisingly bowing down process happens right on the day of my Uncle's Tervi and on the 2nd day of my advance course. As Gurudev talks about ancestors I felt my dear Uncle came at the venue (Vishalakshi Mandap) I was surprised and thought what is he doing here? He should be where the ceremony is happening! He was in huge pain and hurt! I could feel his pain.. I told him to "Not worry about kids as they come by their own karma and will live the life as per their own karma. You were just an instrument for them to come. You have done all that you were supposed to do for them. Now leave them at their own karma and move on." I blessed him! I blessed him like an expert though I didn't even know what is blessing at that time. After I blessed him I felt He got relieved from the pain and he happily moved on and left the venue (Vishalakshi Mandap).


Surprisingly I did not even feel little scared when everything happened. Rather I felt kind of wow.. thinking how can I talk so well and bless him when I no nothing about blessing? Another wonder was bowing down happens just for few seconds and I am not sure how can so many things can happen in a fraction of seconds.

My 2nd advance course was really worse! Meditation was happening but I never felt wow. I was feeling even more irritated, angry, frustrated etc very opposite to how I felt after my 1st advance course! Finally one day I asked Dinesh Ghodke (my advanced course teacher) directly about why 2nd advanced course was so bad? He asked me back "Why?" I said " I have no idea" He looked at me and said "do more advance course." I said " I will!"

As he suggested I did 10 days advance course after that which was mind blowing again! The mystery of why my 2nd advanced course was not effective continued until I watched Gurudev's commentary on "Katopnishad" where he talks about life after death. He mentioned sadhak/Meditator get punya / merits of meditation only if our ancestors are content. If not, first merits goes to them to satisfy them and then it comes to us! Oh my God.. So my 2nd advance course punya was going to my dear Uncle? And Gurudev tells a mantra in sanskrit which means the same what I told My Uncle during bowing down process! Gurudev told its nice to tell this in the language that departed sole understands. And thats exactly what I did!

With Love and Gratitude,
Neha

You either believe in personality or Karma!

Guruji said yesterday in satsang "You either believe in personality or Karma!"

When you see personality : You think this person is hopeless. That person is very nice! Why do person is behave like this! Why she is do dumb! He said that to me she did this to me etc! At this level our mind is stuck and there is misery!

When you see its all my karma: My experiences are defined by my own karma and has nothing to do with any personality or people. Noone else exists! If my karma is good even the worst person will behave good with me. If my karma is bad best person will also create problem. Then personalities disappear! And mind is elevated and free!

One Consiousness/Brahman/God/Guru: The brahman is all powerful. It can eliminate any kind of karma. At this level Its all his play... a beautiful, interesting play (Lila) !


A cute incident happened with me yesterday as I go to dining hall in ashram to take "Kheer" (A tasty indian sweet dish) There was a small cute chaos around the kheer counter because of unmanaged crowd. The guy who was serving was happily, skillfully serving to all. One lady was holding a tray with many empty glasses that she wanted to fill with kheer. As empty glasses was far away for me I took one from her plate assuming she will take one from the other side as it very close to her! But she got very furious with my action! She started yelling.  (Truly seva/help can be done only when one is content! She was in lack consciousness about a small thing like glasses how could she have shared it with me! Compassion happened to me for her. But I was happy that she was in ashram and will grow eventually) I smiled to her, put the empty glass back on her tray and said "Relax.. take 2 from my side from the bunch of empty glasses beside you" This made her even more furious :-P she said "Guruji is giving me and not you!" I just looked at her with so much love and said "and you think I am not part of him?" I don't know if it clicked to her but she didn't not get furious after this!

As I was coming back with kheer to the sitting area I thought "Good... one karma over for me!" (faith on karma) and then thought passed if its your (Guru/Nature/Brahman) wish.. why not! I mean it was a good play with good masala :D

2nd thing that I realised is though it was my karma that I had to experience this, but how to respond to it is my freewill! How much to learn and be grateful about it is my freewill! Gurudev says "Behind every event there is knowlege"  I was very grateful that I could respond so well in the situation! I was never so sorted! Credit clearly goes to meditation. Truly how we respond in the play called life depends on how much peaceful and stable we are from within and to achieve that meditation is the way!


Love,
Neha

Receiving HIM at Airport!

So Akash comes to my house and in his famous style he says "Didi, bada man hai Gurui ko airport recieve karne ka. Chalo chalte hai!"  Guruji was supposed to reach Bangalore at 1:30AM in night. My businessman mind starts working... I have this work, that work, will I be productive if I don't sleep in night etc. But finally I happen to go. Prashant also joined. Ankit and Akash almost kidnapped Aditya in sleep from his home to join us to airport! Five of us left for airport! Ankit was driving us. On the way we were drenched in music, guru stories and laughter!

We reach airport and after lot of planning, chaos and discussion we finally decided to park the car in parking. The airport for the first time appeared like home. It was converted into ashram! Known faces were all around! We were all drenched in love and craziness! I looked round there were all kind of people, people who came to ask personal questions to Guruji. People who  wanted  papering. Few came with birthday cake and wanted Guruji to cut it. And then there were few who wanted to pamper Guruji. They got food for him. And there were people who didn't want anything..they were just there! I was thinking why I am here! Which category do I belong to?

Those beautiful moments of waiting for him at airport! I looked around I am sure at the same time many VIPs must be coming. There were people outside with some name tags waiting of their guests! Their face was so dry as opposed to all of us who were drenched in love and longing at the same time! I was thinking is that not what even I would like? I wouldn't surely like if someone comes to receive me with dull or professional attitude. I would love a warm welcome like Guruji! And the only way to get is to live like him! One can give only what one has. I am among very few lucky once to receive so much unconditional love! If I have it, it can only be me who can pass it on!

He arrives! All shouting "Guruji!" He is as usual happy and sparking even at 1:45AM after long travel! People didn't leave even at airport from their personal botheration! Wanted him to  answer their questions, cut their cake, wanted him to eat the food they got for him and wanted him to accept the gifts and letters they got for him! People expected him to pamper them in dark night on airport after his tiring travel! And no doubt he did all that even at 1:45AM with smile! Finally he sits in his car with sparkling eyes with no symptoms of tiredness!

His car passes and finally we run and Ankit attempts to catch his car on the way. Surprisingly All cars that night appeared like his car until we go close :-) Its the beautiful knowledge that Bawa usually talks about in his courses "You see what you are looking for. If you are looking for reasons to be grateful you will see that all around. If you looking for reasons to be sad you will find them in abundance too!" While chasing we were thrilled and happy! Though we could never catch (even see) his car! But the thrill and happiness in and around us was enough evidence that we already caught him! We come back early morning back at home to do Padmasadhana (meditation) together! It was super fun!

That day I experienced When we run behind materialistic things it only drains body, mind and consciousness. But even a failed attempt to chase the divine.. enlivens us to each particle of the body and spirit! I am grateful to Akash and Ankit to take me to Airport that night! I never felt so much happiness at airport before :-D

Let it be!

Guruji tells about Goliwale Baba who mysteriously got enlightened when gun hit him in a war. He stayed in a quiet dirty place and Guruji often go to see him. Guruji had no aversion left except that of a houseflies. Once Guruji was with him and Goliwale Baba saw him getting somewhat irritated by houseflies. He said "Rehnee Do!" (Let it be!) Guruji says that day even his last aversion also dropped off!  Today on the day of GuruPoornima I pray the same!


There is no bigger gratitude than having you!
There is no bigger accomplishment than serving you!
There is no bigger pride than owning you!
What more to ask, when the source itself belong to you!

Intense Love or jealousy!

Deep craving or abundancey!

Greed, ecstasy or going crazy!

Its all part of being your devotee!

Who care..Let it be! Let it be!

Let the world be as you wish it to be!

When u are part of me,

This world.. Let it be!

Closeness or intense longing!

You be Around or go away miles!

Bliss or painful suffering!

It all reminds me of your loving!

When u are part of me!

Let it be! Let it be!

Let the world be as you wish it to be!

This world.. Let it be!

You look at me or ignore!

You smile at me or frown!

The joy is in all steps!

Anything from you is precious!

When you are with me!

Let it be! Let it be!

Let the world be as you wish it to be!

This world.. Let it be!

You speak or air moves!

Your fragrance or flower's!

You dance or trees swing!

Its all same as it appears to be! 

Let it be! Let it be!

I love you so as u love me!

Its perfect as it should be!

Let the world be as you wish it to be!

Let it be! Let it be!

Love,

Neha

Smoke of incense stick...

Knowledge doesn't need any works. In deep love words don't comes out. Love just flows throws eyes! Transmits in the space and penetrates deep inside the hearts and tears rolls down!

ये दुनिया बाती का धुंआ,

बस मैं और तू है यहाँ सच्चा।  

अजब गजब आकर रचाए है ये धुंआ,

पर बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

अजब गजब कष्ट है यहाँ,

ये सब आकर बाती का धुंआ।

तू रचे है खेल, मेरे मनबसिया ! 

और कौन है यहाँ बोल? बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

शब्द जंजाल रचाया रे सैया,

शब्द या हवा के पुल सब झूठा। 

मेरा मन डोले है हैरान, ओ रचैया! 

मैं क्रीड़ाभूमि तू नाचे खेले खेला। बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

ये लोग आसपास मचाए है शोर,

हवन का धुंआ नाचे है चारो और।

न अस्तित्व इनका न मेरा,

बस तू ही हर जगह खेल खेला। 

ना दॄश्य ना द्रष्टा सब है झूठा। बस तू और मैं हू यहाँ हमेशा ।।

Love,

Neha

Happy Birth Day My Dear Dinesh Ghodke !!! :-P

Though I can write volumes yet there is no words that can express!!!

(Yeah, I know I don't have a new pic so being a good software engineer, reusing the old one. :-P  Hope Mangesh will surprise me with some good pic from his collection after reading this! ;-) )

Yeah I know I do behave weird when near. 

I wonder how at those moments, others opinions don't matter!

I don't like talking, the real talk happens is silence, 

I don't feel like behaving normal, the real joy is in madness

Deepness of your eyes bridges to some other world, 

It makes me to loose grip of this so call real world

The joy of dispassion is visible in you, 

Feels like whole world is yours and still nothing is around you

The universe is so vast and so is you in me, 

It is a tiny molecule and there is no difference in you and me

I mature in love by being in love with you, 

I am so grateful to experience your "I belong to you"

Your voice resonance some very familiar sound, 

I can't recollect but I heard it before many many times

I cry in Sahaj feeling grateful to have you, 

What a luck it is to realize I am around you

I used to wonder if you are my Saibaba, 

Until I saw HIM in all and all under HIS one umbrella

God is everywhere but in you it really shines through, 

HE sent you to me to say I LOVE YOU !!!

Mystery of Time

Note: This idea about time is my individual view and I think it may be right. :-)


Since childhood I used to wonder what really time is? A star that I see right now, was existed like the way I persevere now, atlest 4 light years ago. So every-time I see the sky, I am actually seeing the past! It is possible that the star I am seeing right now is in really no more in present moment. And I think that the star is the reality like this in present moment, which all of us know is not true! The point in sky where my eyes says there is star right now can actually be an empty space (the star may have died/explored)

Why to go so far in sky, even the things that we see close to us is also the past! Its just a matter of few light years or fraction of second! In reality, state of things that I see perceive through senses is all past. Now see, right now you are seeing your laptop/mobile. And you think that the device exists is there in the state that you are perceiving right now. But in reality light rays takes sometime to reflect/emit from the device and fall into your eyes. It is possible that by the time the light rays falls into your eyes the state of the device/object is changed. Though this time is negligible, but the time gap is there! The time gap increases as the distance of the object/device increases from you/observer. So what you see right now, can never be in present moment! And the world that you see right now is completely dependent of your time and space position relative to the objects you see. Similarly the world that I see is dependent on my time and space position relative to the objects I persevere. So in reality the world that I see is never same as the world you see! Meaning if at all both of us are true we definitely perceive the world differently.

Now lets come down from starts to the gadget to one's own body. As a computer engineer, I know that even to execute a simplest machine instruction, it takes some time. So does human body will do. It definitely will take sometime after the light rays falls on my eyes periphery to travel till retina and build the image. Now image formed on retina is upside down! The mind will again take sometime to decrypt the image and give me impression of how to world looks to me right now! (I still don't know what this me is now, will think over it later)  So in reality everything that the senses tells me now actually happened in the past! So I am actually seeing the dead world :-P

Love,
Neha